Tuesday, November 8, 1977
Psalm 12
Day 28
Got up late. Dressed. Ate breakfast. Pops went out to buy a camping stove stove. He came back. Then me + mom + T went shopping. Came back. Started to cook. We had a good eats. Today I read "Risky" and "Black Gold". I also read "Misty, a pictorial Life Story". Ate dessert. Put on pj's. Got in bag. Thank you, Mr. O.
I ate:
The camping stove... a small two-burner Coleman camping stove that used liquid fuel. We parked it on top of the regular stove. Now, in those parental decisions you question... I do wonder why long-range, Poppy thought it would be cheaper to buy a camping stove/buy fuel on a regular basis, as opposed to just turning on the G&E??? Although, I'm not sure we even had a lease, which is what is required to go to Con Ed. Eventually, the Coleman gas proved to be a little pricey, considering we used the stove every day, and so at some point we switched over to using regular gas.
Yes, I know how dangerous that was. But you know what they say: "God takes care of fools and babies." Of which we quite obviously fit into both categories.
Day 28
Got up late. Dressed. Ate breakfast. Pops went out to buy a camping stove stove. He came back. Then me + mom + T went shopping. Came back. Started to cook. We had a good eats. Today I read "Risky" and "Black Gold". I also read "Misty, a pictorial Life Story". Ate dessert. Put on pj's. Got in bag. Thank you, Mr. O.
I ate:
- Breakfast: Peanuts, 1/2 banana
- Snack: 1/3 of a beef stick
- Dinner: beef neck +peanuts + sweetpotato+potato+carrot+rice + soup stock soup, cabbage +carrot slaw, peanuts
The camping stove... a small two-burner Coleman camping stove that used liquid fuel. We parked it on top of the regular stove. Now, in those parental decisions you question... I do wonder why long-range, Poppy thought it would be cheaper to buy a camping stove/buy fuel on a regular basis, as opposed to just turning on the G&E??? Although, I'm not sure we even had a lease, which is what is required to go to Con Ed. Eventually, the Coleman gas proved to be a little pricey, considering we used the stove every day, and so at some point we switched over to using regular gas.Yes, I know how dangerous that was. But you know what they say: "God takes care of fools and babies." Of which we quite obviously fit into both categories.
Comments
Reading this year reminds me of all the anger, fear,loneliness, and insecurity I felt at nine that have continued to plauge me throughout my life (I still love the parents, but DAMN)...
I didn't know better at the time, but I did know that I shouldn't have had to struggle so much and be so damn uncomfortable...
I really didn't realize the difference till we started meeting peers and going to school...our saving grace was that we remained a close family and the love was true and genuine...and that too is something I will never find I'm convinced...
in Jan. when you finish the year, you need to take your posts, as is, add pictures and publish it...I promise it will be a best seller...
And Bear Maiden is right - turning 40 really allows you to embrace your inner lunatic. All that weird shit about yourself that you spend your 20s and 30s trying to eradicate is suddenly perfectly acceptable to you when you turn 40. In fact it's not just acceptable, its valued - you realize that it's all that stuff that makes you who you are and that you're pretty fucking fabulous. Not that any lurking insecurities get up an leave - they're still there - they're just not that important any more.
Really. You all are about the most interesting people I know. You all love fiercely and that's something rare and fabulous. Yeah, it might make life a little hard - and might scare a few hundred people away - but the ones who are left are the ones who are worth it.
There's no such thing as a normal relationship. And even if there was one, you wouldn't want it. It would bore you to tears.