...easy. And sometimes it's easier.
The doldrums got me which is why I haven't been writing... but as bad as I feel I'm not the only one suffering.
There's much to say... spaghetti-like thoughts wrapping around each other but if I start I'll be writing for hours and for once I think I'm going to head off to bed.
I can tell you though that life is so weird for me because my heart is SO in one place and my head is SO in another... and I think... (hey, it just hit me... ) it is the major malfunction in my life. Trying to balance my heart and my head.
Because I still, still, as crazy as it sounds, still am ever hopeful. I asked for signs, and I got them... but then my head wonders "are you crazy? Look at the FACTS. How dumb can you be?" But my heart is screaming "believe! believe! you have to believe because if you don't everything else is wrong!"
But it looks like I'll be working at a small privately owned factory that makes sails for boats. A whole new adventure.... nothing to do with anything I know anything about. Which might be exactly what I need right now.
But before I ramble some more, I'm going to bed. But I'm going to post this picture, for no other reason than it means something to me and my heart... shit like this is what makes me hold on...
And hey, by the way... y'all scared yet? The economy is in the shitter... I'd be scared but I'm already screwed so what difference does it make to me? Not a whole hell of a lot. Though if Sallie Mae goes under, I wonder... but that would be too much to hope for...